The bitter taste of life

i turn the music off
and listen to the sounds of summer,
just for a little while.

there's a world out there
carrying on without me
friends float by
on little feathery clouds of happiness
while i'm knotted in place

emotions are concrete platelets
weighing down a tired heart
i sink into an ocean of sadness
- why try to fight it?

no use for living
except to prove to myself
if no-one else
that i don't need you
to fill this empty place with happiness

you thought at least i'd cry
but nobody gets the satisfaction
any more if i can help it
it's too much like admitting i care
and you don't

[Princess Pea]